Several things have been going on in my life which I have been hesitant to discuss on my blog. It's really sad because blogging is supposed to be about expressing yourself and talking about what is important in your life. Unfortunately when you express yourself and talk about your life on the internet you are opening yourself up to all kinds of reactions, some good and some bad. Seeing as how I've never been one to easily accept criticism nor do I like feeling like I've disappointed anyone I have forced myself to be silent on certain topics in order to not bring about the negative reactions.
Needless to say it's not just about blogging either. I find myself in real life situations where I put on a mask so the people around me will see the person I think they want to see, not the person I really am. Living this life is exhausting. And discouraging. And I'm tired of it. From here on out I'm just putting it all out there. If it negatively affects the way you see me or causes a rift in our relationship, I'm sorry. Just try to look at it this way, I'm still the same person I was yesterday, you just know more about me now than you did before!
And now I'm sure some of you reading this who know me IRL (in real life) are thinking, "what in the HELL is she leading up to?" Yes, I did just use a bad word in my sentence and THAT is exactly one of things of I'm referring to.
Sometimes I use inappropriate language.
I have tried to avoid using no-no words in my writing. IRL I try not to be vulgar and don't regularly speak profanities aloud, but frankly sometimes certain words just need to be used. Therefore I now publicly proclaim this blog to be rated PG-13 for language. I may also throw in a bit of violence, and some topics of a sensitive matter. However, I can promise you there will be NO nudity or mention of sexual matters. There are still some boundaries I refuse to cross. ... and everyone heaves a sigh of relief.
Now that I've decided to open the door and let the real me out, I can't decide where to start. What boundaries should I cross? Should I talk about politics or religion? Should I express my thoughts on gay marriage or abortion? How about breastfeeding in public, or circumcision, or homeschooling, (oops, that's the one controversial topic that I've already addressed), or Obamacare? Hmmm, there's a whole new pool of topics out there for me to tackle. I guess you'll just have to stick around and see what comes out of the new me.
On another note please don't worry about the old me. She's still around and fully intends to continue to regale you with stories of kittens, home improvements, big-bad bugs, kangaroo dreams and such. I think there's room on here for both of us, hope you do to.
I imagine the blog will continue to be rated at a safer level than the Magic Mike movie I saw yesterday am...
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain, Sherri. Sometimes it's hard to know where to draw the line between my personal life and my writing life. Since you read my blog you know that I generally tell it like it is, at least where certain topics are concerned. ;-) So I say, "Go, Girl!" In the words of Dr. Seuss, those who matter won't mind and those who mind don't metter.
ReplyDeleteI have the same issue with my mouth!! what I say.... I tend to be too frank and out there, much to the distress of my ex who was/is a very private person... to me the risks of being open now depend on the situation - and if i can take the consequences or repercussion, so be it.... but now that i'm working i have to be much more careful.... aftter having one encounter when a remark was out of line in retrospect, and i was called on it by the family and asked not to be assigned that patient any more... sigh.... so there you go.... the professional me and the personal me....
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